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if u hav sth better to do - dunt waste ur time readin this
i guess i havent been here for awhile, everything seems different... like da whole xanga front page & layout is weird... personally, i dunt like it at all... it looks unrpo and messy with all da empty white spaces and random little pics everywhere... but aniways, i m happie dat mah blog looks da same! (: hm... it feels like home... all the pinkyness! well, idk wut i m suppose to type or to say but how abt a update of my life?? & yes, i know, i m typing to mahself & prolly nobody's gonna read it anyway... cuz everyone's abt Facebook now..
as i sit here, i am currently wearing a stussy striped long sleeve and reebok grey shorts... weird combination eh?? :P the weather is chilly todai... yea in august... it is still a bit dreamy for me dat i have recently graduated from high school... it means no more going to the old familiar school and going thru the repetitive pattern.... for me, its more options and more responsibilities... it seems like ppl r somewut lost after graduation.. its like suddenly they've lost their life... & they need to figure out wut to do for the next step of their life... maybe i have never been attached to my skool life, or maybe i have this really skeptical side of myself... i know i gotta sumhow move on and plan my life... and high skool is definitely not a stop... it would be mean to say.. but it is the truth, i dunt really miss anyone from high school.. the ones dat i love, i know they'll still be around and the others.. i guess there r just no bonds between us... and i m unlike most of them... they've had been friends since k... and i envy dat...
i m looking forward to university life and i m excited abt it... i fink i have the next few years of my life sumwut organized.. i mean i noe wut i SHOULD be doing... but the diffifult thing is dat, i cant reallie figure out wut i want outta a relationship... in a simple relationship.. i dunt know what i want and wut i should expect from da other person. at times, when one of the person in the relationship is being selfish, i dunt know wut to do... all i can fink of is to throw it away... if there's no relationship, then there's no selfishness and there wont be any pain and tears. maybe i m too sensitive and unreasonable at times. or maybe we r both too selfish, we expect each other to understand and to comfort each other. maybe we really love each other, so datz why it hurts.. or maybe we both can sense dat some things jsut wont turn out the way how it should be.. and the person is not the right one.. but then why r we still holding onto each other.. wut for... love or jsut plain selfishness again?? idk.. hm.. i dunt fink half of da things dat i typed even make any sense.. but yea
i lost mah thotz.... gotta grab sth to eat :P
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